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Hypothesis Number 1

 Lets say the ultimate end-goal is to be satisfied. Not happy. Satisfied. That is to say, what you are looking for, in life, is satisfaction with your current state of affairs. Look at yourself, your life, and ask if you feel satisfied. If you are satisfied with the way things are, then there is nothing that needs to be changed. You don't need to embark upon any new ventures,you don't need to make any drastic changes in your life. It is perfect. All you need to do is maintain that perfection. But is it ever possible to be maintain status quo indefinitely? Frankly, the stress of trying to maintain that perfect, yet delicate balance in itself is not worth the try. You cannot maintain something forever. That much is pretty well documented. So, then, maybe you should accept changes in life,because they are inevitable? But that would mean you let life do whatever it wants to you, that you have absolutely no control over what happens, and that, is at least partially false. I don'

Introduction

 This is not a blog. This is a journal. I think writing is a great way to analyze your thoughts. Writing is no mean task. Even this badly worded essay requires a lot of thinking on my part. I have to read ALL that  I write, and in the process, I analyze it. Like now, I know how bad I really am at writing. I had just assumed that I'd turn out reasonably competent when it came to writing, if I ever got to writing, but as is abundantly evident, I am not. So now I have established a reason for this activity. These are posts that shall never see print(obviously). They will probably not be read by anyone, except perhaps me, from time to time, to see how far I have come. It is a lot like Severian throwing his life's work from the deck of that spaceship he was on, hoping someone, someday will catch it, read it, and immortalize it. I am not looking for immortalization, if indeed thats a word(the red squiggly line below it suggests that it is not). Then what am I looking for? Is it reall